After a short reprief for Sarah, thanks to steroids and antihistamines, the redness and itch have all returned 😦 Frustrating? Totally! Add to that, exasperating, tiring and downright discouraging. But not unexpected, for the medication does not heal but only suppresses the reactions for a while. Apart from a miraculous healing by the grace of God, Sarah will have to keep riding these up’s and down’s. We have been waiting and are still waiting for this miracle. I have been crying out in my heart, “How long, Lord?”
This morning, in my time with the Lord, I ‘heard’ the word ‘Habakkuk’. So, in obedience, I opened my bible and there were the same words in Hab 1:2 … “O Lord, how long shall I cry, and You will not hear?” Of course, the prophet’s cry of desperation was of a totally different context, that I know – just being hermeneutically sensitive. But a cry is a cry.
Fast forward to the end of Habakkuk, and I read the familiar “Hymn of Faith”, as titled by the NKJV translation. Paraphrased to my situation, Hab 3:17-19 would read as such …
“Though the eczema is still there and the allergies don’t seem to go away; though the redness and itchiness still cause Sarah much discomfort and unrestful sleep; though we are trying and doing our very best and are tired out by this additional requirement with no improvement nor progress; though we are praying and praying and praying and praying and still no healing seems to be in sight – yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, and He will make me walk on my high hills.”
Although the situation remains the same, for now, I am encouraged that my God knows exactly what is on my mind and heart. He knows my struggles, challenges and doubts. I may not have received any answers from my reading of Habakkuk but it is very comforting to know that my God knows, that He loves me and cares for me. In that, I also know that He loves and cares for Serene, for Sarah, and for all my other children too. My prayer is for their hearts, individually, to be touched and encouraged by the Lord.
The wait for breakthrough might still be for a while more. How long? Only God knows. He holds a bigger picture that I am learning to see and to accept, even when I don’t see and at times very hard to accept. Hab 2:4 reminds me that “the just shall live by faith” and that is what this walk is all about. Faith. And not just believing faith, although important; but persevering faith that is tested by fire and affliction, out of which is forged the genuineness of faith that pleases God.