I have been feeling rather un-spiritual or at least not very productive in the department of spirituality.
Why? Well, it’s been tough to find a quiet time. And when I do have that space of time, the first inclination is to lie down or to space out. Also, the rushing around does not help – from kitchen, to study, to bedroom, to toilet, to dining room, to living room … and all over again!
At the back of my mind, the ‘spiritual tasks’ call out to me: gotta pray, gotta read the bible, gotta spend time with God; gotta fast, gotta … sigh 😦 If I don’t address this in the right way, I know what will happen.
First comes condemnation, then accusation, then frustration then resentment! Condemnation because I feel lousy and guilty for not being as spiritual as I should or could be. Accusation because I am made to feel like a fake or a hypocrite, unworthy of the ministry. Frustration because I am ‘stuck’ at home, surrounded by seemingly menial chores and unable to do great things for God! Resentment because I feel I should be released to minister, to serve, to impact lives, to extend the Kingdom!!!
Yes, it all sounds noble and godly, even. But when I dig deeper, it is nothing but pride and selfishness rearing its ugly head … again and again! And the enemy readily capitalises on these to make me feel lousy about myself, my wife, and my children.
Many of us (especially SAHMs)* struggle with this because of the spiritual-natural divide that still exists in our perceptions and understanding. For example, I may consider preaching more spiritual than changing diapers; or discipling more spiritual than playing a game with my children; or reading the bible more spiritual than reading a storybook to the children. That’s a totally wrong idea and must be weeded out as quickly as we allow our minds to be renewed.
Col 3:17 says, “Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.” Then a few quick verses later, in Col 3:23-24, this is further emphasised, “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ.”
These verses liberated me this morning. It reminded me again that everything we do is spiritual and has a spiritual significance when done in the right attitude, to the glory of God. When I bathe the children heartily, God is glorified. When I wash the toilets heartily, God is glorified. When I take out the trash heartily, God is glorified. When I clean soiled bums heartily, God is glorified. When I burp the baby heartily, God is glorified. When I <insert task here> heartily, God is glorified.
Yes, there is spirituality to be found in praying and reading the bible. Similarly, there is also great spirituality to be found in the simple tasks we do around the house. May I constantly be reminded of this that in whatever I do, I will always do it heartily, for I serve the Lord Christ!